Longing for Someone

Have you ever felt the pain of having someone you've known forever, but time to time you realized that you cannot recognized them anymore?

So all the things to do is just bring back the memories and swallow the truth that they are now a different person with they were past few years. They are exist. But now they are strangers.

For a brother who have passed away

Hi,

You know that you are the only cousin that I consider as a bro, rite?
You need to tell me how to stop staring at people that look like you and wishing that was you.

Don't be too much

Dear my emotional aspect of myself.
I would be grateful if you affect less than half of myself. Am tired of being too emotional. Don't you feel it too? This things ruin ourselves, don't you realize?

You know how much you can affect my career also, rite? Don't make me hating you more than yesterday.

You know what is worst from the time?
We can't take back what has happened. No matter how much you've kick yourself.

What is wrong?

Hello again, Blogspot!

I've been longing to write on you again. Won't lie, loneliness tend to push me back to you, as I realized I start to not tell any one about what really happens on my deepest mind lately. So congrats, you are the chosen one, the safety place to tell a secret, even tho there will always a possibility for people noticing my write.

Weather it is because adulthood or just another PMSyndrome, I suffer for having melancholy thought regarding people's existence on my life, a friend, a lover, and even a pet (sorry not sorry for categorized them as "people"). Why do they come and go? Why should I let them visit my heart and left some remarks if in the end they would left and won't come back?

It is always hard to let go, but always easy for me for being too attach -emotionally-.

Effortless Trust

A friend of mine once told me,
He married a girl he knew he could love for the rest of his life
And If only God let me choose,
I would choose the one that I know I would trust for the rest of my life,
That even if he asked me to jump to the precipice and said everything will be fine,
I’ll do, with no hesitation.

Mine to you,
Is an effortless trust..
Caused by a magic spell you spread since the first day that we met,
Try that hard to resist but it won’t worked in the end,

I’ve been touched,
By those warm and soft heart,
I’ve been caught, imprisoned on a room with no open door

And now am tired of you ghosting me through the night and the day
Seems like every distraction I made for my self won’t enough to make you fade away,

And am tired of wasting my time on someone who are not right,
And you know everyone who are not you is not right

Would you mind, to come back and fix things you’ve left broken?
Would you mind?